One of the most universally strongly disliked type of person is one whom we all have known at one point in our lives. It's not the tyrant. Not the hypocrite or the landlord. Not the liar (well perhaps to some degree...). It isn't even the criminal, no. No no, friends. It is someone who can hurt us far worse than that. It is...
just a little mood music....I love Cold Play.
"Oh and I don't have a soul to save,
Yes, and I sin every single day,
We never change, do we?
We never learned to leave."
A favorite quote of mine goes something like this.
" Be the change you wish to see in the world."- Gandhi
Now this is a lot easier said, ( liked on Facebook/Tumblr/Pinterest, re-blogged, re-tweeted,re-spammed... etc.) than done. Not many people have the time to think up new ideas to help change the world. Even fewer people have the willpower and courage to nurse those ideas for innovation until they become full fruit-bearing trees; it's a rigorous process. I, unfortunately, feel as though I am stuck in that latter category. I have ideas, so many ideas, yet I've failed time and time again to act on them.
Do not fear! I don't think I'm a terrible person because I haven't say found the cure for cancer or miraculously de-polluted our oceans overnight. (I'm working on it though.) There are many things which can block and discourage any innovator's project's. One thing that always got me ever since grade school was something I'll name, The Cruella De Vil Hypothesis.
Its basically that feeling you get halfway to halfway through your project. When its 3-am and you're having a meltdown and shouting at a wall "WHO THE **** CARES?!?!? THE WORLD IS NEVER GOING TO CHANGE ANYWAYS!!." It is something which I let prevent my ideas from moving forward.
But let me clarify my point in regards to the name. In the Disney movie 102 Dalmatians, Cruella De Vil ( the notorious puppy snatcher of 101 Dalmatians also one of my favorite villains) was put in an experimental behavioral therapy institution in order to fix her tendency toward puppy-slaughter.
She emerges after some time utterly changed, almost saint-like and holy with her new found love for dogs. It was so nice to think that even Cruella de vil could change her ways. But after some time it became evident that the psychological work the scientists had done to her could be undone as soon as the subject was exposed to the chimes of Big Ben, London.
It was something that left me thinking, "If I can't even fix my sleeping habits, what made me think that I could fix the world?"
Growing up I was often overwhelmed pondering the sheer amount of people just alive on planet earth- that's about 7 billion people. And the more problem riddled countries happen to be the most densely populated countries too, Asia stealing 4,140,336,501 of the world's population as of 2011 and Africa with a stunning 994,527,534. That was way too many humans for one girl to help. And what was the point? How much would I help anyway?
The answer is I don't know, because I have not tried my absolute best yet. I will not be content with being Cruella, who only managed to change herself temporarily. A complete and permanent change is necessary in order for my ideas to manifest themselves completely and successfully. Like the heroes from 102 Dalmatians Kevin Sheppard (who started his own dog shelter in the movie) and Chloe Simon (who granted Cruella parole! what?), I want to believe in the world and believe in my own capacity to help change it.
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